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I often ponder what I am doing. I question my motives and I wonder.
My desire, my heart, has always been to aim women to the LORD in their sufferings, in their grief——I have known many sorrows, agonies, and I have learned, and I have known that in all of these--all of my hope and my comforts are from the LORD.
Parts of my sorrows have come from controlling, manipulative, cold, legalistic——scary people. Leaders who bully to get their way, who threaten and seemingly win their way in their little kingdom, and who even, to this day, believe they can still control and manipulate me.
This year, I have become stifled, choked, and even paralyzed with fear because of their pernicious threats. I live in freedom, but for whatever reasons they had to prove they control me even though they have no control over me.
They seemingly have “won”—they believe to have “won” everything from us.
But are they winners?
Sinners in the hands of an angry God!
My conscience is free. I have only lived around their destruction and I have more than survived—— even though we, like Uriah, who had his “lamb stolen”. He, may have lost his life to the one who stole his only lamb, but he is most probably with the LORD in glory.
We have walked with God in our freedom from them. We have drawn closer to Him, showered with His blessings which they can not ever take from us.
After months of fear, I now praise the LORD who has set me free once again from this new anxiety I felt because they still believed they could control me.
My desire and my heart is still to reach other women who grieve, who weep, who are in pain, and now even more so because I have been revived again by my One and Only, the LORD God Almighty! I will use the agonies in life for His gain. If I am harassed again as to try to stifle me, to paralyze me, I will recognize their manipulations and just plug on joyously for the LORD.
I am free in Christ!
*Precious sisters in Christ, If you have been beaten down, harassed, silenced, paralyzed in fear from a controller, a manipulator, an abuser of any kind, you also can find comfort and freedom in Jesus.
Praise the LORD God Almighty who saved us through His Son from these sneaky, evil people, even if we must live among them on this earth.
*Do your job for the LORD, do what He has set before you, and glorify His name daily.
You can not do their job for them, they are the only ones who can do their job and they are the ones who will be held accountable for their own behavior before Him. This is not your business, it is God's business. Let the LORD do His business with them.
The LORD will have His day, The LORD will have His way with them.
Praises to my God and Father!
"Blessed be the LORD
Because He has heard the voice of my supplication.
The Lord is my strength and my shield;
My heart trusts in Him, and I am helped;
Therefore my heart exults,
And with my song I shall thank Him.
The Lord is their strength,
And He is a saving defense to His anointed.
Save Your people and bless Your inheritance;
Be their shepherd also, and carry them forever."