Yesterday I was overwhelmed and overcome by my situation and my agony. I forgot the LORD's character. I believed how I felt, and I felt as if He had forgotten me in my trials. All I wanted was to get home to my sanctuary so I could cry out to God and tell Him how I felt, so I could completely cry tears of utter hopelessness.
But He already knew how I felt as I was driving home. He was already carrying me and keeping me from crying in my hopelessness. As I drove, I would remind myself over and over again of His faithfulness and how He would not have forgotten me. Even though I felt certain ways, I knew in Whom I trusted! I knew I could not trust my feelings.
I have learned that this life is so real, but that He is working behind the scenes in amazing ways that we can't even fathom. He is working behind the curtain on people's hearts. We are fearfully and wonderfully made, and this includes our inner-most person. He is working even when we see no change.
I came home to share with my Beloved my overwhelming feelings. He assured me and I agreed, that even though I felt great fear and also abandonment of the LORD, that this was not the truth.
I turned to the scriptures, but I could not think of where to find comfort from Him. My mind went to the Psalms, and to Psalm 31 where He met me right where I was in my fear and wrong thinking. It was just what I needed to hear to be reminded that He has not abandoned me. I can not trust my feelings, but I can trust in the LORD my God. I need to keep my eyes on Him even when I am overwhelmed and overcome in my feelings.
Praise to the LORD God Almighty!
In You, O LORD, I have taken refuge; Let me never be ashamed; in Your righteousness deliver me. Incline Your ear to me, rescue me quickly; Be to me a rock of strength, a stronghold to save me. For You are my rock and fortress; For Your name's sake You will lead me and guide me. You will pull me out of the net which they have secretly laid for me, for You are my strength. Psalm 31:1-4
You can find comfort in Him in your situations also. Run to Him and seek His face.