Seek First His Kingdom

We have recently been up at 6- to-8000 feet in elevation with the crisp, clean air. 

Lots of hiking with no asthma! along with no feet or leg issues! Praising the LORD!

There was also lots of driving time, with lots of time to think. 

Think. Think. Think.

My Beloved, years ago, use to call me "Worry Care", because I tended to worry all the time about everything. He would counsel me to learn to stop this and trust the LORD.

“So do not worry about tomorrow; 
for tomorrow will care for itself. 
Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Matthew 6:34

As our travels eventually took us on the way home I began to realize that much of my time, recently, has been full of me "pushing my agonies away".  I was truly NOT thinking of them, but this was also me NOT relying on the LORD.

This is semantics.  I was actually thinking of my sadnesses while I was "pushing" my agonizing thoughts "away," but I didn't make them go away, nor was I at the feet of the LORD giving my agonies to Him.

After this whole time traveling I was thankful to finally realize I was wrong in how I was dealing with my sadness.  I then began to handle it rightly with the LORD.

After all these years of learning to give these things to the LORD, I still need to learn more and more. I certainly easily forget.

This sadness is with us 24/7/365 for 16years.  We can not get away from it.  We can "say" we will not talk about it or bring it up, but reality happens.  

Our loss is like a double death. 

Our loss is like a double amputation.  

How can we not lament?  

How can we continue as if we still have our missing limbs?  

It is normal to remember past joys and happy times, but then the sad times mix in to this no matter how we try to keep them out.  This is where the LORD comes in.

He reminds us who we are in Him. We can trust Him, we can rely on Him, and we know we can.

Yes, these long-standing agonies have come, but He shows us that we are safe in Him.   He also has shown us that as we trust in Him through these tough times, we are maturing in Him.  This is the best place to be.  

Praising Him every moment!

“For this reason I say to you, 
do not be worried about your life, 
as to what you will eat or what you will drink; 
nor for your body, as to what you will put on. 
Is not life more than food, 
and the body more than clothing? 
Look at the birds of the air, 
that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, 
and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. 
Are you not worth much more than they? 
And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? 
And why are you worried about clothing? 
Observe how the lilies of the field grow; 
they do not toil nor do they spin, 
yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory 
clothed himself like one of these. 
But if God so clothes the grass of the field, 
which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, 
will He not much more clothe you? 
You of little faith! 
Do not worry then, saying, 
‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ 
or ‘What will we wear for clothing?’ 
For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; 
for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 
But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, 
and all these things will be added to you.

Matthew 6:25-33